music and memories

post 13 of blaugust

As I hinted back in my gaming history post, music was my big thing during my teens and twenties (it carried on during my thirties but in a much calmer fashion :P).  It was what defined me I suppose.  I used to live for going to gigs and clubs – it was a wild and fun time 🙂

When I was a teenager, it was all about the indie scene so bands like the Wedding Present, The Wonderstuff, The Smiths, The Stone Roses, then grunge hit and I was listening to Sonic Youth, Mudhoney, Tad, Alice in Chains, The Smashing Pumpkins and yes, Nirvana.  After that, it kinda gets blurry – I’m still listening to all those bands (how could I forget Radiohead?)and many more besides notably I guess Kings of Leon and Queens of the Stone Age (I’m completely out of touch and stuck in the past with music now – when I was 20 I didn’t think that would happen, I thought I’d be different to the ‘old fogies’ but as it turns out, I’m not :P)

But I didn’t want to write a band by band history of the music I liked.  Instead I thought I’d write out a few memories sparked by songs.

The Smashing Pumpkins – Siamese Dream.  Before Dimzad and I started going out, he printed out these lyrics for me – and Soma is our song.  I am notorious for getting the words wrong when I’m singing along – I don’t really care to be honest.  My best not-quite-right-lyric was Mudhoney’s Sliding in ‘n’ out of grace – I was convinced it was I can’t breathe in outer space – makes sense at least 😛

Prodigy – Firestarter.  Two reasons – first, we used to play wipeout on the playstation (part of the soundtrack), and we got really freaked out driving back from a festival through a tunnel while listening to this.  Second, our friend came up with some alternative lyrics, something along the lines of I’m a cheese potater, taramasalata which still makes me laugh now.

Queens of the Stone Age – Songs for the Deaf / Screaming Trees – Sweet Oblivion.  I had to commute from one side of the district line (London tube line) to the other, a journey of about 45 minutes, a few weeks after the London tube bombings.   I was alternately rational (better chance of winning the lottery you know) and completely terrified that there was going to be a repeat attack.  The strange thing that kept me chilled was this soundtrack – I thought if anything did happen, at least I was going to die listening to the best albums ever.

ah yes, I had to scan this in. the wonders of living in the pre-digital age. though am eternally grateful my past wasn’t immortalised on Facebook and the like 😛

I remember Roger from Contains Moderate Peril, tweeted that an album he had bought felt like a lifetime ago.  I replied something along the lines that my youth felt like it had happened to another person.  Twenty years later, I look and act very different to the girl in the picture, I was such a free spirit (and full of pretentious twaddle ;)).  I sometimes wonder where she has gone.  At the same time, I still get surprised when I look in the mirror.   I don’t actually want to go back to that age, I’m far happier now then I was.  I do occasionally miss the ‘everything is new and awesome’ feeling though 🙂



  1. I suppose I was a ‘child’ of grunge too and simply don’t have time for all that music anymore…

    Isn’t it weird not to have pictures of those times (I know some were taken) but who ended up with them or where did I put them? Unlike the digital mass outpouring of pics nowadays…always accessible!

  2. As a kid, my mom always made me save almost all of my money except to buy gifts for others for birthdays and Christmas. But when I turned 13 I was able to be a little league umpire and finally had enough disposable income to buy my first cd- Siamese Dreams, which may still be my favorite. So, nice taste!

  3. thanks for your comments 🙂 yeah, there are tons of missing pictures i guess, ones that my friends or family took. question is, do I want to see them again?!

    my first records I bought were 7″ vinyl and were Blondie, the tide is high and Kate Bush, Babushka. Yeah I can hold my head up :)) I was about the same age too 😉

  4. You know, I felt the same way that I wouldn’t ever let my love for music die, or live in the past, and I’m just now in my 30’s and it hasn’t happened yet. I still keep up on bands (mostly underground, but some that are on the radio) and I’ve even settled into new favorite genres. I feel like I will always adapt, but I suppose the threat of really “becoming old” is ever present.

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